Every action has an equal and opposite reaction. – Isaac Newton

 

Looking for justification on the things that you have done is not easy. You may find one but its hard to accept. There are things that you do but are not recognized because people don’t tend to see what you did due to the fact that their minds tells them not to see it because their minds told them right from the start that what they should see in the end should be like this or like that. “Standards” is what other people call it. If other people have set a standard, then you’re dead when you did it with all your heart and soul but didn’t live up to their standard.

 

And its hard to accept when those kind of things happen in life, especially something that you did, conceptualized by heart, executed by knowledge and never recognized, just thrown out in the dust bin of the mind. Just like what happened to me, I did the best I could, conceptualized it in my mind and heart, executed by knowledge but in the end she just said that she can’t wear what you gave to her. Justification for these kinds of things are hard to come by. It may never come. It seems that your effort was not that enough for her standards. Even a recognition or words of appreciation just to quench the thirst for justification didn’t come.

Life maybe cruel. The only thing that you could wait for is the “bounce back”. A pat in the back that someday or somehow will come sooner or later. We never know. That’s why I wrote this, because of the pain that what has happened. I felt that somehow I failed somewhere along the way. Or probably, it’s just what she thought, what her mind told her to think so. Either way, I am the one who failed in reality because she thinks so or I know I did my best and never failed. Probably all in the mind….